When I was 17 years old I felt this way. My dreamed was to become a teacher being the eldest among siblings. I want to help my parents who was a farmer. But I am not the owner of my own destiny. His planned was better than mine.
I have a whirlwind marriage after I visited the place of my Uncle. It was my first time having man to my life. They were surprised why I quickly decided for it but for a reason I decided doing it after a man ruined my dream who became my husband and we had only one son.
Being a daughter, I had no doubt myself to do for my family. I did many things for them though ai was too young. I helped my parent
But during my wedding day , that was the first time I doubted myself if how could I do as a good wife and a mother of our child. I doubted so much on how to be a perfect woman. I doubted if I could handle certain things at 18 as a perfect wife or a soon mother to be that time. Many negative outlook had been through.
But.... here I am firmly standing that I can do all things into places . I faced every consequences and strived. I managed to be stronger than my fears in life. I fought a good fight gaining positive aspects and realization that made me at least not the best but better than the rest.
A successful young mother at 20 when I heard the cry of my first only child , made me overcome all doubtful moment of my life. I did it and here I go every day, no doubt and I am now in the process of overcoming self doubt. Have faith in God , everything will be alright.
I won every battle! but everyday has new test of life. No where to go but to face it, I am no longer getting afraid of any kind of trials. What I promised to myself, I will fight everytime I face problem, no surrender and I will be the strongest woman ever. Instead of being doubtful, I made it to defeat those fears!
By: @olivia08